Update on scary

First I want to say thank you for all the nice emails and kind words.
I had a hard time translating the Thai but I think I got the gist and thank you.

To catch everyone up I have had a scary few weeks.
I basically woke up in a pool of blood twice.
You would think once would get my attention but I am apparently hard-headed.

Now I am not one to air all of my dirty laundry on this here blog thing but I have come to a realization in the last few weeks.
Most people blow off the little signs that something is wrong.
I did, for a very long time.
I've had some issues that should have been looked at months ago.
Ladies I'm not here to preach or tell you how to take care of yourself but I can say that not speaking to my doctors earlier may cost me and I am very frightened.

I have also realized that what is happening to me is not as crazy as I originally thought.
According to my doctor this is pretty common and a lot women do exactly what I did.

When I awoke in the we small hours of the morning I am embarrassed to say....I thought I pissed the bed..
I was cold and wet.
It was shocking and humiliating
When I flipped on the bedside lamp things went from embarrassing to sheer panic.
There was blood everywhere.
It was horrifying and I had no idea what to do.
I reached out to a friend but I was so embarrassed that I didn't say anything. I didn't say "help" I didn't say "I'm bleeding" I just let the phone go dead and sat on the bathroom floor crying. It was awful.

What happened next is where most of us go wrong.
After cleaning up I realized, I was no longer bleeding.
Whatever had happened was a fluke episode and I was fine.
I told myself, it must have something to do with my age and hormone levels changing.
"there's nothing wrong, its just hormones"
I changed the sheets and went back to bed.

It happened again about a week later.
The second episode was even scarier but this time I did not turn a blind eye.
I have had a few biopsies, a CT scan and an MRI
I have another series of scans Wednesday and another biopsy.
Gynecological biopsies are no fun.
I mean I cant imagine any biopsy is fun but these are just horrible.

I feel pretty positive.
They have been able to give me a medication to stop the bleeding and have me on iron to help with anemia
My energy is back....bleeding a lot will make you sleepy, and the tests that are back look good.

Where I am having regret is not opening my mouth over a year ago when sex became painful and my periods got completely unpredictable.
I hear it from every woman I know, "I have not had a pap in years" "I am just so busy", "its too hard to get an appointment". We have a tendency to make every excuse in the book when it comes to our own health but harp on our friends and family about getting to the doctor.
Women's intuition is real.......you know it is ladies, when that little voice in your head talks to you, you have to listen and act

Again, I want to thank everyone for your sweet messages. I'll give another update in a few days.

and now back to stupid sayings, funny cats and my favorite music videos :)

Heartbreaking

I heard about this late Saturday night.

It's a horrible story and it has taken way to long to come to international attention.


http://www.cnn.com/2014/05/05/world/africa/nigeria-abducted-girls/

'I will sell them,' Boko Haram leader says of kidnapped Nigerian girls

By Aminu Abubakar and Josh Levs, CNN

(CNN) -- Fears for the fate of more than 200 Nigerian girls turned even more nightmarish Monday when the leader of the Islamist militant group that kidnapped them announced plans to sell them.

"I abducted your girls. I will sell them in the market, by Allah," a man claiming to be Boko Haram leader Abubakar Shekau said in a video first obtained by Agence France-Presse.

Call to #bringbackourgirls in Nigeria

Police: 223 abducted girls still missing

Jones outraged 200 girls kidnapped

"There is a market for selling humans. Allah says I should sell. He commands me to sell. I will sell women. I sell women," he continued, according to a CNN translation from the local Hausa language.

Boko Haram is a terrorist group receiving training from al Qaeda affiliates, according to U.S. officials. Its name means "Western education is sin." In his nearly hourlong, rambling video, Shekau repeatedly called for Western education to end.

"Girls, you should go and get married," he said.

The outrageous threat means the girls' parents' worst fears could be realized. Parents have avoided speaking to the media for fear their daughters may be singled out for reprisals.

U.S. State Department spokeswoman Marie Harf said the video "does appear legitimate."

The tape won't intimidate or deter Nigeria from efforts to save the kidnapped girls, the Nigerian government said.

"It is disheartening that someone would make such a terrible boast," Doyin Okupe, spokesman for President Goodluck Jonathan, said in an interview with CNN.

"It is to be expected of terrorists," he added. "No group can affect our resolve. We will see this through to the end. We have the commitment and capacity to get this done. No matter what this takes, we will get these girls."

On Sunday, Jonathan vowed, "Wherever these girls are, we'll get them out."

But he also criticized the girls' parents, saying they weren't cooperating fully with police. "What we request is maximum cooperation from the guardians and the parents of these girls. Because up to this time, they have not been able to come clearly, to give the police clear identity of the girls that have yet to return," he said.

Weeks after the girls' April 14 kidnapping, Africa's most populous country seems to be no closer to finding them, triggering complaints of ineptitude -- some of which are expressed on Twitter with the globally trending hashtag #BringBackOurGirls.

On Sunday, about 100 demonstrators gathered outside the Nigerian High Commission in London, chanting, "Bring them back!" and "Not for sale!"

Crowds from Los Angeles to London rallied Saturday as well.

"Access to education is a basic right & an unconscionable reason to target innocent girls," former U.S. Secretary of State Hillary Clinton wrote Sunday on Twitter. "We must stand up to terrorism. #BringBackOurGirls."

Nigerians protest over kidnapped schoolgirls

Boko Haram: Nigeria's crisis

According to accounts, armed members of Boko Haram overwhelmed security guards at a school last month, pulled the girls out of bed and forced them into trucks. The convoy of trucks then disappeared into the dense forest bordering Cameroon.

On Friday, Nigerian authorities updated the number of girls kidnapped to 276. At least 53 of the girls escaped, leaving 223 in the hands of their captors, police said.

Authorities said the number of missing girls could grow as police fill in spotty school enrollment records.

Families had sent their girls to the rural school in Chibok for a desperately needed education. The northeastern town is part of Borno state, where 72% of primary-age children never attended school, according to the U.S. Embassy in Nigeria.

It's even worse for girls than boys. "In the North particularly, the gender gap remains particularly wide and the proportion of girls to boys in school ranges from 1 girl to 2 boys to 1 to 3 in some states," UNICEF says.

Twelve northern states follow Sharia law.

In recent years, Boko Haram has carried out dozens of attacks, killing thousands of people at schools, churches, police stations, government buildings and elsewhere. Targets include Christians, senior Islamic figures critical of Boko Haram and people the group believes are engaged in "un-Islamic" behavior, the U.S. Commission on International Religious Freedom says.

Boko Haram has gained training in weapons and communications from al Qaeda in the Islamic Maghreb and al Qaeda in the Arabian Peninsula in recent years. This helped it move from little-noticed attacks to more spectacular ones, including against Western targets and the Nigerian government, which it seeks to overthrow, U.S. authorities say. In 2011, it carried out an attack with IEDs on the United Nations headquarters in Abuja.

It's unclear just how big the group is. The U.S. State Department says Boko Haram's membership estimates "range from the hundreds to a few thousand." A U.S. government report in December 2011 found that a "consistent lack of reliable reporting on Boko Haram has contributed to the difficulty in assessing its size, makeup, and goals."

Though Nigeria has Africa's largest economy, driven largely by oil, poverty remains widespread: Nearly 62% of the country's nearly 170 million people live in extreme poverty, according to the CIA World Factbook.

That dichotomy takes center stage this week as a World Economic Forum meeting convenes Wednesday in Nigeria's capital of Abuja. The country "already plays a crucial role in advancing the continent's growth; yet it is also emblematic of the challenges of converting natural wealth into solutions that address persistent social challenges," the World Economic Forum on Africa says on its website.

The United States is sharing intelligence with Nigeria to help in the search, according to a U.S. official with direct knowledge of the situation.

"We are sharing intelligence that may be relevant to this situation. You are going to see a focus on this in all three channels of government: diplomatic, intelligence and military," the official said, speaking on the condition of anonymity because of the sensitive nature of the information.

Police in Abuja denied having arrested a leader of a protest over the weekend that was critical of the Nigerian government's efforts. In a statement, police said they "invited" Nyadar Naomi Mutah, a native of Chibok, for a "fact-finding interview." She cooperated and "was immediately allowed to return home to her loved ones," police said.

But Aminu Mahmoud, a lawyer representing Mutah, said her client was arrested Sunday without charge.

Fellow protest organizer Hadiza Usman said that during a session called by first lady Patience Jonathan to meet with protesters, the first lady recognized Mutah and said "let's keep you aside for now." It was not clear whether that had anything to do with Mutah's later going to the police station.

In its statement on the matter, Abuja police also said security agencies "are leaving no stone unturned" in an attempt to ensure that the children are rescued.

CNN's Evan Perez contributed to this report.

IT HAS TWO R'S IN IT!!!!!

If one more kid tells me they are they going to the "libary" I'm going to lose my mind

Like nails on a chalkboard..................


That is all

Of course you can have my soul

it's a bit slow but wait for it........trust me

Aging gracefully

This is a really fun list (for those on the young side just move along......you will have no idea who most of these people are)

It's long and wonderful and will bring back many, many good memories (like music always does)

http://djrioblog.com/2013/11/26/new-wave-artists-aging-gracefully-an-80s-world-gone-by/

Monday Morning

Holy moly......what a beautiful weekend leading into a beautiful Monday.

I don't know where you were this weekend but in my neck woods, it was GLORIOUS!!!!

Took the new neighbors to dog beach.....yup, there's a "beach" in my neighborhood and I'm not going to tell you where it is ;).
Headed down to Candler Park for a movie.....kinda bummed I missed Wall-E, but Muppet Movie was good.
Definitely headed to Karate Kid to top off my B-Day celebrations.

But holy crap this morning has just been amazing. Woke up before the alarm, don't you just love it when that happens, hit almost every green light on Buford Highway......and still kept it under the limit.
Suck it Brookhaven PD......and discovered another great song from this seemingly cheesy band.
(I'm over 40, I no longer give a crap about what people think of my musical tastes)

Oh, and I'm having a great hair day....take that Monday

Add this one to the good morning play list......it's a happy song

Mike Rowe

I heart this man so much. I think I'm gonna start a church.
(JK Mike Rowe's people. No need to put me on the "special" list)



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A Fan Asks Mike Rowe For Life Advice… His Response Is Truly Brilliant.

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Mike Rowe from Dirty Jobs is an awesome guy. He can build or fix anything, he’s very entertaining, and has a great sense of humor. Mike also tells it like it is and gives great advice to others. A fan wrote him and asked him for some career advice:

Hey Mike!

I’ve spent this last year trying to figure out the right career for myself and I still can’t figure out what to do. I have always been a hands on kind of guy and a go-getter. I could never be an office worker. I need change, excitement, and adventure in my life, but where the pay is steady. I grew up in construction and my first job was a restoration project. I love everything outdoors. I play music for extra money. I like trying pretty much everything, but get bored very easily. I want a career that will always keep me happy, but can allow me to have a family and get some time to travel. I figure if anyone knows jobs its you so I was wondering your thoughts on this if you ever get the time! Thank you!

- Parker Hall

Hi Parker

My first thought is that you should learn to weld and move to North Dakota. The opportunities are enormous, and as a “hands-on go-getter,” you’re qualified for the work. But after reading your post a second time, it occurs to me that your qualifications are not the reason you can’t find the career you want.

I had drinks last night with a woman I know. Let’s call her Claire. Claire just turned 42. She’s cute, smart, and successful. She’s frustrated though, because she can’t find a man. I listened all evening about how difficult her search has been. About how all the “good ones” were taken. About how her other friends had found their soul-mates, and how it wasn’t fair that she had not.

“Look at me,” she said. “I take care of myself. I’ve put myself out there. Why is this so hard?”
“How about that guy at the end of the bar,” I said. “He keeps looking at you.”
“Not my type.”
“Really? How do you know?”
“I just know.”
“Have you tried a dating site?” I asked.”
“Are you kidding? I would never date someone I met online!”
“Alright. How about a change of scene? Your company has offices all over – maybe try living in another city?”
“What? Leave San Francisco? Never!”
“How about the other side of town? You know, mix it up a little. Visit different places. New museums, new bars, new theaters…?”She looked at me like I had two heads. “Why the hell would I do that?”

Here’s the thing, Parker. Claire doesn’t really want a man. She wants the “right” man. She wants a soul-mate. Specifically, a soul-mate from her zip code. She assembled this guy in her mind years ago, and now, dammit, she’s tired of waiting!!

I didn’t tell her this, because Claire has the capacity for sudden violence. But it’s true. She complains about being alone, even though her rules have more or less guaranteed she’ll stay that way. She has built a wall between herself and her goal. A wall made of conditions and expectations. Is it possible that you’ve built a similar wall?

Consider your own words. You don’t want a career – you want the “right” career. You need “excitement” and “adventure,” but not at the expense of stability. You want lots of “change” and the “freedom to travel,” but you need the certainty of “steady pay.” You talk about being “easily bored” as though boredom is out of your control. It isn’t. Boredom is a choice. Like tardiness. Or interrupting. It’s one thing to “love the outdoors,” but you take it a step further. You vow to “never” take an office job. You talk about the needs of your family, even though that family doesn’t exist. And finally, you say the career you describe must “always” make you “happy.”

These are my thoughts. You may choose to ignore them and I wouldn’t blame you – especially after being compared to a 42 year old woman who can’t find love. But since you asked…

Stop looking for the “right” career, and start looking for a job. Any job. Forget about what you like. Focus on what’s available. Get yourself hired. Show up early. Stay late. Volunteer for the scut work. Become indispensable. You can always quit later, and be no worse off than you are today. But don’t waste another year looking for a career that doesn’t exist. And most of all, stop worrying about your happiness. Happiness does not come from a job. It comes from knowing what you truly value, and behaving in a way that’s consistent with those beliefs.
Many people today resent the suggestion that they’re in charge of the way the feel. But trust me, Parker. Those people are mistaken. That was a big lesson from Dirty Jobs, and I learned it several hundred times before it stuck. What you do, who you’re with, and how you feel about the world around you, is completely up to you.

Good luck -
Mike

PS. I’m serious about welding and North Dakota. Those guys are writing their own ticket.
PPS Think I should forward this to Claire?

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